Smoking is injurious to your health. I know! We know! People know! But that does not stop any of us from smoking. Growing up, smoking was something I looked forward to do. That may sound absurd. Both my parents smoke and all their siblings too. So I’d say that thought is not that bizarre after all. I associate smoking to being an adult, a sign of maturity, a symbol of being able to decide for oneself, a rite of passage. Despite that goal to eventually smoke when I grow up, I found myself trying to make some sense to myself that it is a bad habit that I shouldn’t even start. I was successful until I was about 25 years old. I endured being around friends who puff here and there. I was able to ignore the temptation.
Like all other habits, it started with a single puff from a friend – just to try it out and see how it feels. And then a puff turned into a stick. And then the stick turned into a pack. And then I started buying an extra pack so I don’t ran out. I was Tempted. I gave in to the temptation. I was hooked. I was doomed.
I found out I was pregnant 8 months ago and the thought of quitting was incomprehensible. Having the baby didn’t really convince me to quit. You can judge me but that’s the truth. I started reading about how the baby grows inside the womb, how the baby’s affected by all the food the mom eats, about the consequences of what the mom does and her lifestyle. I read quite a few scary side effects of a smoking mom while carrying a baby inside her and the thought of hurting my little tiny human woke me up. I stopped cold turkey.
My husband smokes and it’s hard not to be Tempted when you can see someone smoke, when you can see a pack of cigarette lying around the house, when you can smell it on his clothes and when you know you can sneak out and get away with it. I’ve been stressed out at work, anxious about giving birth, worried about the result of my recent exam in school and a stick of cigarette could take a load off. This morning I was Tempted.
I walked away from the thought.
It’s as simple as that. That’s how you do it. No explanation, no justification, no more thinking. Just step away and keep walking. And every day, we need to choose to walk away.