TGIF – Try

It was an awesome week, thank god it’s Friday!

Growing up, I had many struggles. Struggles that I made sure to win.

Some of them I lost entirely but most of them, I won; after years of trying and a lot of time consoling myself for the failures along the way.

Success is much sweeter when you’ve worked so hard for it and reminiscing over the multiple downs and upset days you’ve gone through. I’m not saying one should fail multiple times first and succeed after so many tries.

All I’m saying is that, it is a sweeter revenge when you’ve accomplished something even if the world sort of told you that you can’t.

My hubby have been trying to pass the road test to get a driver’s license for about a year now. He can only try every after a couple of weeks after the last one but it took him a year because he got so frustrated he didn’t want to try again right away.

And so with much urging and incessant convincing, he recently actively booked road tests after road tests. I may not know exactly how he feels at every failure but I certainly know the feeling of being a disappointment.

Just this week, we went for another one which I almost cancelled on because I had “better” things to do that day.

My stomach was full of flying butterflies as he pulled out of the parking lot with yet another examiner. And the butterflies grew even worse when I saw the car pulled back. Exam is over.

I waited in the room, looking at a distance at the car while the instructor and my hubby was intently discussing how the exam went. I wasn’t sure what to do.

I have exhausted all the inspiring and consoling words to say. What should I say this time?

The most awaited moment happened. He passed!

I was filled with so much enthusiasm. I was even more ecstatic that him. I think he grew numb to the feeling of failing time and again.

Ultimately, there is no one or nothing that can stop you from achieving anything that you want. It takes a lot of courage to face the possibilities of disappointment but the probability of actually succeeding should exceed that.

We should not stop trying. We should always strive for victory. We shall have it. As I always tell myself, I will not be discouraged, I will be avenged.

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TGIF – change

It’s been a wonderful week.. thank God it’s Friday!

I walked along a familiar aisle towards a desk at the south end of the second floor. It was a year ago since I was there last.

Part of me is excited to be back but a bigger part of me is a little lonely. I was happy a year ago before I went on maternity leave. I was part of a great team, fun trio, reliable colleagues and almost friends.

As I come closer to my desk, it hit me that my go-to guy has left and found a greener Pasteur; my turn-to gal has left to enjoy the coming of her newborn.

Change is here.

I sat on my desk and fired up my computer. It’s all starting to come back to me. I spent the day going through my thousand emails that are now completely irrelevant. I worked on getting all my access back and organizing my stuff.

I posted back the photo of me and my husband where I used to pin it. I have an addition this time. My son’s best photo yet.

Change is here.

A couple days later, my senior and I had a refresher meeting for the changes that have happened with the accounts that I used to do and how things are going to be done moving forward. After seeing all the spreadsheets and going over the folders in my computer, I felt home. I felt I’m back where I used to be.

The same afternoon of the refresher, I was called into a meeting with a few others from a different department. I knew something is up.

Management has decided to move me to a different department so now I’m going to do a different account that is totally different from what I’ve been doing for the last couple years.

Change is here.

It’s been a week now and things are still all new to me. It would’ve been nice to go back to what I’m used to do but I realized change is good. You just have to take it in, embrace it and give it a shot. It’s not that bad.

Change offers new learning, growth, excitement and it piques your brain after being static for being too familiar with something. I like where I am now. I do miss all the people I used to work with that are now gone and I’m still getting to know my new team. I can’t help but compare but in truth, it is what it is.

Change is here and it’s either we adapt to it or be stubborn and stuck. I choose to move forward.

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TGIF – simple things

It’s been a wonderful week.. thank God it’s Friday!

I went to the porch with a cup of coffee and stick of cigarette minutes before I went to bed. These are the moments I look forward to each day.

For one, because I get to do the 2 most plain things that I enjoy; Two, because solidarity is pure serenity; and lastly, because I get to ponder about the day, the week, the things I should be grateful about and what tomorrow might bring.

Each night I think about just the simple things that one often forget to be thankful about. And I try to be more positive.

I thought about the day that went by. I’m grateful that I woke up today and was given a chance to spend time with family.

I thought about my mom who dropped her life to be here with me and my new bundle of joy. I’m so happy I get to spend time with her and she gets to spend time with her grandson.

I thought about my husband. He’s not perfect and most of the time I think about my endless list of expectations he failed. But at the end of the day, he’s there for me and I will be here for him. Each day, we choose to love.

I thought about my little angel. He’s awesome and I know it’s hard now that he’s young but I am given an opportunity to hone a person that will make a difference in the world someday.

I thought about autumn. It’s a new season. The leaves shall turn yellow and fall off the tree but it will spring back.. in time.

Happy weekend and may we continue to appreciate the simplest things around us.

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TGIF – the end

It’s been a great week.. thank God it’s Friday!

I know for sure that you are one with the rest of us who are happy it’s Friday. Another week has ended and we can set aside the worries of work and enjoy the calmness of home surrounded by family. We get to shut down our work mode and just be.. sluggish.

Beyond that, Friday reminds us that everything shall come to an end. That to every Monday is a Friday. To every start is an end. More importantly, not all endings are to be construed as sad. Not all that ends should be heartbreaking.

I just finished a book today and the characters have grown on me. It took me a while longer to finish this one not because it was a bad one but because of all the other things that happens in any one’s life – work, husband, children, chores, etc.

During those times that I was reading, it almost felt like I was part of the story. I was part of a different world. As the book was coming to an end, I had wanted not to end it but I also wanted to know how it will conclude its plot. I almost didn’t want to finish it because a part of me will miss the characters. But things that begin have an end.

The end of a book marks a beginning to a new one. The last part of the movie can be the prologue to a sequel. The fading words to a song means you can play another one. The close of the mall says you can come back tomorrow. The end of a week signifies a start to a brand new week to explore.

So let us not see the end as a period to a sentence. Let us not see the finish as the conclusion of the story. Because we all get a fresh start as the week begins on Monday.

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truth of life

Life has too many mysteries and though people over time have discovered and believed to have uncovered some of them, life itself remained a mystery.

Over time, people – scientists and professionals worked to explain and expose various truths about how life is created inside a woman’s womb, cure to deadly illness, preserve life, cheat death and behaviors to prosper.

In all these, two things remained constant. I’d like to share that on today’s two things Tuesday.

1> One
Felines are said to have nine lives. How awesome that would be if it were true with humans. So then we can have a clean slate after each life. That way we will have multiple tries to make our life worth it.

But we don’t have to have nine lives to make the most out of this great gift. After all, we are given 70 some years give or take to improve our lives, get a career, be happy, procreate, influence others to do well and live to the fullest. That should be enough. One lifetime should be enough.

2> Temporary
We all know what we have is borrowed time. In the end, we are to return this gift to the creator. The time we have been given is a chance to experience what life has to offer so that we may triumph over pain, overcome frustrations, succeed the failures and achieve happiness and contentment.

My husband lost his mom late last year and recently, his aunt who was more than a mother to him. His aunt cared for him since he was two and taught him everything he knew about life. It is devastating when it’s time to give life back but it is only sad if you have not lived it how you should have.

These truths are nothing unknown to us. But often times we choose to ignore these facts. It’s time to stop wasting it. It’s time to start living it. Let all the sorrows be gone, let all wounds heal, let all dreams come true. So at the finish line, we will be all smiles – no regrets, no unfinished business, no ifs and no looking back.

 

 

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TGIF – beautiful scars

It’s been a wonderful week.. thank God it’s Friday!

 

I am thankful for all my scars and that might have sounded weird for some. In life, I learned that we need to see the good side of all the bad stuff, ergo scars are beautiful.

 

I have scabies when I was a kid and I carried those scars until now. Some of them have faded completely but some were too deep it created a deep crater in my skin. This physical scar is kind of hard to shake.

 

I was laughed at and bullied in school because I was different. I have fresh wounds on my legs and so I hated PE days when we need to wear shorts. I was humiliated and shamed for the longest time. These scars will always remind me of being weak.

 

I learned to be tough so I can ignore my classmates as they whisper behind my back. I had to be strong and choose to come to school every day even if was hell for me. These scars will also remind me of how I became resilient and strong.

 

I have gone through all sorts of pain – losing a competition, failing an exam, getting kicked out of school, disappointing my parents, fighting with my sibling, getting my heartbroken, etc. This emotional scar is as much harder to shake.

 

In my life’s ups and down I’ve accumulated a variety of scars that brings about sadness and frustrations but it also made me a better person. I have become a person who is ready to take on more challenge and eager to triumph more of life’s obstacles.

 

Physical or emotional scars, I’d like to appreciate them and you should too. It is a reminder that life ain’t easy but it does get better. It is proof that we can be fragile then strong the next. So bring it on!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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TGIF – promise of today and tomorrow

It’s been a great week.. thank God it’s Friday!

 

We wish for so many things; endless wants and incessant desires. Our mind is clouded by all the material things and earthly cravings that we even forget to be thankful for the ones we’ve accomplished. We are way too busy checking off our bucket list that we fail to remember to cherish and celebrate the wins which we worked hard for.

 

More importantly, we disregard the simplest things yet most vital gift that we receive every day. We overlook being thankful for each day that comes when we are given the opportunity to actually work on our aspirations and make them real.

 

This has nothing to do with faith or religion at all but I believe it is but proper to take a moment each day to appreciate that we wake up each morning. Let us be reminded that each day that we get to have coffee and appreciate the rising sun is a chance to be more and accomplish more.

 

As the sun comes down at the end of the day signals that an opportunity has ended as much as it signifies that a new beginning will start. We may not have accomplished the many things we wanted in a day but the night is a promise that there will be a tomorrow.

 

Again this has nothing to do with faith or religion but I know it is but proper to take a moment at the end of each day to appreciate that there is hope as we bid good bye to a day that has ended. Let us be reminded that as we stare at the stars when we close our bedroom windows and turn off the lamp by our bedside, we may have a new beginning tomorrow to be more and achieve more.

 

 

 

 

 

 

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