He has not forgiven himself but thought he succeeded in moving on for the last 20 years. All of a sudden he is alone. All of a sudden he has nowhere to go. And all of a sudden he has nothing. He was blessed with a lot of things that were essential to his life but not exactly what he hoped for. And for that reason he neglected all these gifts. He failed to acknowledge the little things that 20 years after meant everything. He lived his life just as he wanted, with complete disregard to how it’ll impact all else that surrounded him.
She said she has forgiven him and convinced herself she succeeded in moving on for the last 20 years. Yet every random thing would remind her of that awful night. Every comparable scenario would remind her of that dreadful time. And every piece of memory would remind her of that sorrowful feeling. She made a huge sacrifice for choosing all else but her own happiness and people looked down on her. They perceived her as weak, incapacitated and downright stupid. She was tied forever to the choice she made.
They were young; they were in-cognizant; they were irrelevant. They breezed through 20 years free of any anger, contempt and disrespect. They did not accept the circumstance as hindrance to prosper, grow and thrive. Their mind understood the past but their hearts did not Cling to it. They were boundless since the beginning.